The Garage

Last Saturday I went out to the garage to find something. I *thought* it was full of stuff that I was missing. I was wrong. It is full of, well, NOTHING!! There is a car in there that doesn't run and some empty cardboard boxes and about 4 boxes/containers of things that we don't have any room for at the moment. And a treadle sewing machine that belonged to my grandmother that I could not leave behind. I had gone out there to find my extra sewing machine. I don't think it's here. I think I accidentally left it behind. I say accidentally because my daughter wants to learn how to sew and now I can't find the darn thing. It was refreshing to go out there and not have to sift through stuff. I opened four boxes, peeked in and said "Nope! Don't have it!"

So where is all my junk? My mother in law so willingly and graciously went through our house after we left and went through EVERY LAST PIECE OF EVERYTHING and catogorized it and labeled it, and is storing it in her shed. She did not throw anything away, she did not give anything away. The thought of having to go through all of it when we go visit, makes me sick to my stomache. I would say at least half of it I don't want or need.

I think this is all very symbolic. I left my junk behind, because I couldn't deal with it at the time. How often do we just leave stuff because we can't deal with it? In this case it was a time crunch. I was not physically able to sort the rest of it. And we HAD to get out of there. We needed to be in our new home before school started.

The moral of the story is? We will all have to deal with our junk at some point. When we deal with it says a lot about where we are in life. If you can deal with your junk head on, in the moment you are in, hats off to you! You must be in an optimal mental state. If you are procrastinating dealing with your junk, there is something going on. You are dealing with stress. Seek help, that's what friends are for. Reach out to your resources. Deal with your junk before it is too late, and people you don't know (and people you do know who you don't want to know about your junk) have to come clean out your junk because it has swallowed you. This all applies to physical, mental and emotional junk. It's not healthy. You deserve better. You are important, you are of value!!! You have a wealth of talent and knowledge that needs to be shared that is being hidden and bogged down by all the unnecessary parts of your life. Giving is getting! Give of yourself and get peace of mind in the process. You will feel better. Instead of insecurity, you will find comfort.

Go forth! Live the life you have imagined! Embrace your dreams! Have vision for yourself! You can DO IT!